I’m heading to a networking event today. I was excited for a while, but now that it's here, I don't feel like going. Sometimes I just don’t want to be a leader. It's something I continually work on. It seems I'll always be a work in progress.
My default response is to follow – stay back and watch the extroverts do their thing. Keep to the shadows where it’s safe and nobody can judge me. There are days when I get to work and feel like: Can’t someone else run the class today? Just tell me what to do, and I’ll do it! Give ME directions, not the other way around!
I like to think that I’m getting better at speaking up and saying what’s on my mind, but on days like this my stomach starts doing that topsy-turvy thing, and I know I’ve regressed back to square one. What a shame…
Not a shame, we're all works in progress, just in different ways. I am like you in regards to networking, topsy-turvy. The important thing is to feel the fear and do it anyway, and forgive yourself if you don't.
ReplyDeleteThanks! Feeling the fear and doing it anyway is definitely important in growing. "Forgiving yourself" is hard for me, but is a necessity. In case you were curious, I went, and did okay. Next time I'll do better!
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