I’m heading to a networking event today. I was excited for a while, but now that it's here, I don't feel like going. Sometimes I just don’t want to be a leader. It's something I continually work on. It seems I'll always be a work in progress.
My default response is to follow – stay back and watch the extroverts do their thing. Keep to the shadows where it’s safe and nobody can judge me. There are days when I get to work and feel like: Can’t someone else run the class today? Just tell me what to do, and I’ll do it! Give ME directions, not the other way around!
I like to think that I’m getting better at speaking up and saying what’s on my mind, but on days like this my stomach starts doing that topsy-turvy thing, and I know I’ve regressed back to square one. What a shame…
